I’m really a very compassionate, funny, and loving man; a few people have seen that side of me, others have been blinded by my bipolar disorder. I have led church groups, given seminars to hundreds of people at a time and led soldiers in other countries with the respect, determination and focus of a hawk; but when the dark side takes over, I was called caustic and abrasive.
My sudden and ever-changing moods have thrown me into situations that I never intended to be in; often making me feel like a marionette being pulled into other worlds by unseen forces I did not understand and could not control.
The book is dedicated to my ex-wife, who spent twenty-three years with me and my disorder,never knowing what it was that made her life difficult.
Much of what I’ve written in this book has never been told to anyone before — not my ex-wife,nor my closest friends. I decided to write this book because I wanted to document memoriesthat kept replaying in my mind. I thought that if I put them down in order, on paper, that theywould stop recycling. It worked, for the most part, and I learned a few things about myself alongthe way.
Do you know your triggers? Have you ever been somewhere and suddenly felt a change in your attitude, your disposition or perspective on things? Were you able to identify what it was that caused the change? What was the trigger to your mood change that caused you to get angry, sad, upset; or even happy, elated or jubilant? Being able to identify the cause of the change is the
Music has always been able to move me; I use it all the time to adjust my moods. Here’s a song that in my opinion clearly depicts the life of a bipolar person. It’s “Burning Bridges” by The Mike Curb Congregation
